Trying

Day by day trying to live
Trying to breath
Trying to walk step by step
But step getting harder and harder

Try to do something else
Try to be a normal as possible
Try to be what others do
Try to have something that make me keep the faith
Try Trying Tried
Now i am tired
Tired of trying
I dont know my life goes like this just because i'm not trying enough
or because its my excuse for my lame life

Just trying to and trying
till the end of my day...

p/s: When i'm excited to pull out my feeling into words suddenly black out in my office. Thats really stop my excitement so thats why my post I end just like that.

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